My fashion idol, Mary-Kate Olsen. Her individuality in style is my inspiration.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Leave
I so badly want to leave Perth, to start of somewhere completely new...
To indulge a new environment and new faces. Inhaling the new smell and absorbing the new light. Two and a half years until I set off. I will end up h
ere.
To indulge a new environment and new faces. Inhaling the new smell and absorbing the new light. Two and a half years until I set off. I will end up h
ere.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
The power
These past few days have been wonderful, truly wonderful. I never knew I would be able to feel this good is such a short period of time. I believe it's my strength to be happy again? My optimism on my shoulders and the power of my heart and mind. As I still may feel a bit woozy on this path I've walked, I'm returning to the state from which I started but only with new experiences and thoughts.
Michael, You're gorgeous and you're warm hearted words truly make me smile. You took the time to listen and that's something I am grateful for. You are beautiful.
Michael, You're gorgeous and you're warm hearted words truly make me smile. You took the time to listen and that's something I am grateful for. You are beautiful.
Monday, May 25, 2009
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Monday, May 18, 2009
You are low and I am high
I don't find you worthless, I don't believe anybody is worthless. Nor do I hate you, nobody should be hated. I despise you.
I believed a lot when I started to get to know you. I opened up and let you into my life, easily.
Oh what a silly mistake I made there...
but then again isn't life about making mistakes? And you say what you did was a mistake, maybe it was, maybe it wasn't, will i ever honestly know? But whatever It was and no matter how it made me feel, I am taking this as a learning point in life. Obviously I feel diminished but who I am is no where near it's presence. I may feel emotionally weak but mentally I'm stronger than I have ever been.
I thought we could grow together, to trust each other, to tell one another our problems and inner thoughts. To let our progressive relationship grow into something beautiful. See? What silly things i made myself think but somewhat natural. We all fall for it and tend not to learn but oh I will. My guard is up, my barrier won't be easy to break now.
From what I have recently experienced I will no longer be able to trust someone as easily as I did to you. I will no longer be able to trust myself and my instincts easily. Time... that's what I need. Time.
I believed a lot when I started to get to know you. I opened up and let you into my life, easily.
Oh what a silly mistake I made there...
but then again isn't life about making mistakes? And you say what you did was a mistake, maybe it was, maybe it wasn't, will i ever honestly know? But whatever It was and no matter how it made me feel, I am taking this as a learning point in life. Obviously I feel diminished but who I am is no where near it's presence. I may feel emotionally weak but mentally I'm stronger than I have ever been.
I thought we could grow together, to trust each other, to tell one another our problems and inner thoughts. To let our progressive relationship grow into something beautiful. See? What silly things i made myself think but somewhat natural. We all fall for it and tend not to learn but oh I will. My guard is up, my barrier won't be easy to break now.
From what I have recently experienced I will no longer be able to trust someone as easily as I did to you. I will no longer be able to trust myself and my instincts easily. Time... that's what I need. Time.
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
inbetween times
We sit around this paperbark tree and this lovely green shrub-like tree shelters part of the bench where we tend to shove our tomato sauce packets in. How ideal.
Then Nik and I tend to sit to the bench right next to it, by ourselves as we prefer the space.
The paper bark tree has it's thick roots popping out from the ground so when we walk through it we usually only step on the roots, a little game we play. We have the whole view of the open space in front of us where people walk past every second or just simply stand. We witness conflicts, general conversations, watching secrets being told, observing body language, seeing everything that tends to happen in every day life.
I love my girls.
Then Nik and I tend to sit to the bench right next to it, by ourselves as we prefer the space.
The paper bark tree has it's thick roots popping out from the ground so when we walk through it we usually only step on the roots, a little game we play. We have the whole view of the open space in front of us where people walk past every second or just simply stand. We witness conflicts, general conversations, watching secrets being told, observing body language, seeing everything that tends to happen in every day life.
I love my girls.
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
nothing is comprehendable
Finally an update. I haven't had my internet router working in a couple of weeks so i thought why not connect it to the modem so now I can't write in my room.
How have we all been? What has been happening? Any updates?
I have some, I suppose.
My eyes were locked on someone and still is and I literally think about no one else or even notice other people around.
But I should start to think again, when something special happens, it doesnt last does it?
Well I haven't experienced it yet, obviously.
My situation may just end as it only has started. What a quick finish.
A lesson I have learnt over and over again: nothing can last without pure devotion and strong feelings.
But then again i may be too young to even comprehend situations like these.
I honestly want decent people to meet. People who can inspire more, people who can show me the world through their eyes. I want to meet people with a lot of charisma and people who have a warm beautiful heart.
More news...
Family problems, my sister, her step dad, whom is my dad and mom.
I can not bare seeing my sister sad and in tears.
Full stop.
Even more news..
Nikki and I want to go on a road trip to Broome, silly idea, I know.
We plan on leaving Western Australia and to go somewhere cold and beautiful,
yet we want to visit a hot tourist town.
So we are planning to drive up with Bethany in a few months time just to get out of this dull city.
I lead an interesting life, I know...
But writing on here gives me a way to express things.
Oh and one more thing.
Stick to things you have started and never create things that you think will finish.
How have we all been? What has been happening? Any updates?
I have some, I suppose.
My eyes were locked on someone and still is and I literally think about no one else or even notice other people around.
But I should start to think again, when something special happens, it doesnt last does it?
Well I haven't experienced it yet, obviously.
My situation may just end as it only has started. What a quick finish.
A lesson I have learnt over and over again: nothing can last without pure devotion and strong feelings.
But then again i may be too young to even comprehend situations like these.
I honestly want decent people to meet. People who can inspire more, people who can show me the world through their eyes. I want to meet people with a lot of charisma and people who have a warm beautiful heart.
More news...
Family problems, my sister, her step dad, whom is my dad and mom.
I can not bare seeing my sister sad and in tears.
Full stop.
Even more news..
Nikki and I want to go on a road trip to Broome, silly idea, I know.
We plan on leaving Western Australia and to go somewhere cold and beautiful,
yet we want to visit a hot tourist town.
So we are planning to drive up with Bethany in a few months time just to get out of this dull city.
I lead an interesting life, I know...
But writing on here gives me a way to express things.
Oh and one more thing.
Stick to things you have started and never create things that you think will finish.
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